Well, Selah wil be here in 11 days!!! Wow!! We moved the date up from September 13 to September 6 bc she is breech and we have to have a C-section... I really really wanted to do natural birth, but I guess God had other plans :) I was super scared at first, but I have come to terms with it. Ive never had a surgery before or even been admitted to a hospital, so that is what scares me the most I think. But the fact that we get to meet our little angel a week early is worth it! I am SO excited!! I have had the most fun buying cute little outfits for her! 

I cannot wait for her to be here. I am so excited about looking into her beautiful eyes and falling more in love with her :) God is so good. We don't deserve such a blessing. I will try to update again before she comes... But, if not, next post will have pictures of our little miracle :)

Life changes

Wow! 6 more weeks (give or take a few days)!! We are sooo excited!! I cannot wait to meet our little girl :) Allen is so sweet, we were talking about Selah the other day and he said "Im in love with someone I havent even met yet!" It makes me tear up when I think about him saying that. Selah and I are sooo blessed to have him. He is AMAZING.
I am getting super excited about moving apartments too!! It will be a down-size(from 3bdrm/2.5bath to 2bdrm/2bath), but there are soo many things about our new place that will be better than the place we are at now!
1. The most exciting thing about the move is that we get to paint!! That means my dream for Selah's room will be able to come true!!
2. We will actually have a separate laundry room!! The washer and dryer will no longer be in the middle of my kitchen!!
3. We will have a pantry too! No more storing food in our cabinet space!!
4. Everything will all be on one floor now so no more walking up and down stairs 50 times a day! Which will make taking care of a baby much easier!!
5. We will have walk-in closets!! We have to tiniest closets here where we are now that we cant even share one! My closet is in the study and his is in the guest room! No fun.
6. We will also have storage space on the balcony! So no more storage boxes taking up our closet space!
7. Our kitchen will actually look new as opposed to the 1970's look our kitchen has now!!
8. Walnut Hill has a 24-hour fitness center, 2 pools, tennis courts, a car wash area, etc! The place we are at now has NO amenities except a tiny, gross-looking pool!
Anyways, those are just a few of the reasons why I am excited to move!! It will be a difficult one, considering Selah will only be about a month and a half old(assuming she comes on time), but it will definitely be worth it! It will just take me a while to unpack Im sure. But thats ok! I will be glad to take my time!

Since I get to decorate Selah's room the way I want, the next things i need to be working on is picking out a paint color and ordering the fabric for her bedding that my mom is going to make! Yay!!! These are a few paint colors i have been looking at:

This one is Benjamin Moore Silver Dollar

This one is Sherwin Williams Steely Gray

This one is Valspar Beguile

Well, these are just a few i have found online. I want the wall to be a gray, but not too soft because her baby bedding is going to be a soft gray... So we will see!! Im super excited though!! :)

Selah's first shower!!!!

Today was Selah's first baby shower!! It was with the college girls/youth leadership from GBC and it was soooo fun!!!!! We got so many amazing gifts!

It is such an awesome feeling to be loved by so many people :) We are so blessed to be a part of this church family. Allen also snuck a little gift in the pile:) Selah's first Bible!!!

I definitely cried a little when I opened it. He is going to be such an amazing daddy :)

Now that we actually have some things for her I feel a little more ready for her to come!! I cant wait!!!
7 more weeks seems like forever, but I know time will fly and we will have our little girl in our arms :)

Selah :)

Wow! Only 7 more weeks till our baby girl gets here!! So crazy!! I feel like this pregnancy has gone by so fast. Our lives are about to change forever. This will be an amazing journey :)
We will be moving around the end of October to a smaller apartment just so it will be easier on me and everything with a new baby. So we arent going to set up her baby room till then. I have quite a few ideas, but i am also glad i will have a little more time to think through her room! I decided on gray, yellow, and pink for her colors.
This is what the dream baby room for Selah will look like:

I found a website where you can design your own bedding so that is what i came up with:) To buy it from the website would be super expensive, so I have been out shopping for fabric to try to match this as much as possible. I am so excited!! I am not sure what to do with the curtains yet... I also made this to hang from the ceiling above her crib:

Anyways, we will see how it all comes out :) It will be a few more months before we are actually able to set her room up, but it will be soooo cute!!!! :)
Ok, thats all for now!!!

Trusting God in ANY circumstance

It's confession time. It is so very hard for me to trust God with finances. It has been this way my whole life! I can trust Him for healing during illnesses, safety during trials, etc, but, for some reason, not so much when it comes to Him providing for me financially. This is one of the sins that I constantly struggle with.

It has really been hitting me these past couple of months realizing that we will be having a baby and i will be quitting my full-time job to take care of her. Allen and I have really felt the Lord leading us to have me stay at home(if possible at all) and raise our kids instead of having to send them to a daycare to raise them. We believe that it is our primary responsibility to disciple our children and raise them to love and glorify Him. (Not that people who have to go back to work are bad or doing something wrong, this is just a conviction the Lord has given us.)

I have gone to school and am a certified medical transcriptionist, but I cannot find anyone who will hire me!! I know He has a plan through this, it is just discouraging because I dont want to feel helpless. I want to contribute financially to my family.

It makes me wonder, though, if this might just be good for me. Right now, we both make enough money for me to not really have to worry about much. Which, in turn, causes me to feel like I dont have to trust the Lord as much to provide for us. This is a completely wrong way to think!! We are to trust the Lord AT ALL TIMES:
Psalm 62:8 says, "Trust in Him at all times, O people; Pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us. Selah."

I found this super-cool verse the other day that is slowly changing my perspective:
Deuteronomy 33:26 "There is none like the God of Israel, Who rides the heavens to your help, And through the skies in His majesty."
How cool is that?! The God of Israel, Creator of the Universe, Saviour of the world, King above all, "rides the heavens to our help"!!  The fact that I feel this God is not worthy of my trust is shameful. If I cannot trust Him, who am I going to trust?! I am His adopted child and He promises that He will take care of me.

Matthew 7:11 "If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give what is good to those who ask Him!"

Matthew 6:31-33 "Do not worry then, saying, 'What will we eat?' or 'What will we drink?' or 'What will we wear for clothing?' For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. BUT SEEK FIRST HIS KINGDOM AND HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS, AND ALL THESE THINGS WILL BE ADDED TO YOU."

As long as I am seeking Him above all else, He promises that He will provide my needs! So, instead of scrambling to trust Him when things get difficult, I need to be trusting Him every day, even when it seems like I can take care of things myself, because He is the only One who is forever faithful.

ITS A GIRL!!

Well, Elijah is a girl:) Well, i guess she was Selah all along! haha! We were so shocked at the ulstrasound, it was so funny! But the other ultrasound was so early it was hard to tell...

Its taken me a while to get my head around a little baby girl! I can't believe it! I am equally as happy as when i thought she was a "he":) I am super excited about making all kinds of cute little things for her (with the help of my friend, Anna Wakefield, of course!!This is her amazingly cute blog:thecozyapt.blogspot.com.

Anna introduced me to this blog: http://jonesdesigncompany.com/ which has tons of cute and creative ideas!!

The first thing i thought of making was the flower mobile. It is found on her website!

I think i will use daisies and either yellow or gray ribbon, probably a pretty, light gray.

I also want to make lots of little flower pins for all of her cardigans(and other cute outfits) that she will wear. Found here:http://jonesdesigncompany.com/tutorial/flower-pin-tutorial/.

I am so so excited! Its so nice to know for sure that it is a girl, I can pray specific things for her now. First of all, I pray for her salvation. I pray the Lord has already chosen her to be a child of His and that He will turn her heart towards Him at an early age. I pray that she grows up to be a godly woman, who values modesty and always puts Christ first. We are so excited to be having our first "Arrow" to be shot out into the world!


YAY!!! Alright, Anna, lets start making cute things!!!!!!! :-)

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I used to be so good at writing... Finding things to blog about used to come so easily to me! But lately, every time I want to blog, I can't get my thoughts together... Maybe it's little Elijah:) You know, I never believed in this "pregnancy brain" stuff until I experienced it. I am so forgetful and scatterbrained these days. Oh well:) Speaking of little Elijah, I've started to feel him move around pretty regularly! Especially when I eat. It's such an amazing feeling:) Its so crazy that there is a little life, being formed by God, growing in me! Such a big responsibility too. I pray every day that Allen and I never take this lightly, that we glorify God with this life He has entrusted us to take care of. What we want more than anything is that Elijah will give the MOST glory to God that he is able to in his lifetime.